New Things

Hello Friends,

So due to my lack of knowledge on how to use blogspot effectively...I have a new blog that I will be using instead of this one.
You can find it at:

http://aandienicole.wordpress.com/


Thanks and Love.
xx

There is a story behind those eyes

Everyone in this world has a story. There is no story too small, too insignificant. It shapes why we think, how we interact, and who we are. It defines how we think and how we view the world. How our souls react to certain things. There is so much to a person if you really listen. Everyone desires to be known, and to know.
I want to hear as many stories as I can in the short time we have. I want to know. To be known.
Tell me your story.

No such thing.

No matter how much I dwell on it, I can't change the past. I can't change the promises that were broken, I can't take back the words I said, or the words you said, I can't change how you used me. I can't change how I took you for granted. The only thing I have control over is how I choose to walk away from this and choose to walk in freedom. You can't take me with you. You can't have that piece of me anymore.
I can throw a pity party and claim how much I hate you, or anyone remotely like you. But there is no such thing as hate when my heart is enveloped in His. He who knows no hate. He who is only about love. I choose right now to wash my hands of you, of everything that happened, and move on. No more obsessing, no more insomnia, no more "what if", no more thinking that I can't shut off. I will be still. I will know that He is God. And I will not worry anymore.

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I hate feeling like I am at rock bottom again. I hate it.

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown.

I asked God for growth...even if that meant pain. and He gave it to me. I would say "be careful what you wish for" but that would be painting a negative light on it. I'm so glad I got what I prayed for.

A few days ago ago, I spent the entire day in one of my favourite places. Things were going absolutely perfect. Absolutely everything in my life was going amazing. I just spent the day relishing in the joy and peace that I had and thanking God for it all. Then I came to a realization: Am I only praising God when things are easy? I was. I asked God to help me praise him even in the storm and find that same Joy even when my circumstances were awful. I asked him to grow that in me no matter what the cost, no matter how much it hurt....and goodness did He ever.
After that day, a domino effect of things crashing down all around me happened. I will not say it was easy just because I prayed for it. It's wasn't...and isn't, but I am still so thankful God answered my hard prayer. Whatever the cost, whatever is going on around me, I want to praise him. Not curse him for my life going bad...how petty that is! I prayed a hard prayer. And He answered it.

Now comes the strength. Now comes the growth. Now comes the healing.

Happy Accidents.

Something I've realized more and more is how Not in control we really are.
Learning to let things just be and not stress or worry so much.
Because one way or another things work out for the better...even if it's not the way we ever expected them to work out.
Enjoy the awkwardness. Enjoy the fun. Just let life come and enjoy it.

for lack of better words

I wish I knew the right thing to say all the time. I can see how much you're hurting. And I now how much I want to help...but I can't. I will be here to support you and love you no matter what you choose. You are strong and you can do this. Even though we haven't known each other that long and aren't that close, I will be here for you when others won't.
I see your heart breaking and being ripped in two entirely different directions and it hurts me. My heart hurts for you because the thing is...I have felt the pain you are feeling now. I know how much you long for this deep down, despite how hard it would be and despite what everyone is saying and telling you to do.
I will pray unceasingly for this life to be saved. My heart aches for you.